cookies make everything better

Good news...our program is staying open! So, no money freak-outs for me again today! But this does re-motivate me to really get back to finding a new position. Maybe something entirely different for a change. I really am burntout where I am currently. I've been there 5 years and need a change to compliment my teaching. Maybe within my field. Maybe not. I feel this responsibilty to stay in the field right now since I'm teaching it at the college level but I need a break. Maybe I can find a place to do one art therapy group per week and work a fun, regular job the rest of the week in addition to teaching? We'll see. I just always feel this huge sense of responsibility and have trouble with change and worry about making mistakes constantly. But every "risk" I've taken up to this point in my life have brought some of the most wonderful things into my life.

This has really been an overwhelming week and I need to just relax. I get so stressed out too easily. I am also still processing everything that happened this weekend and re-evaluating my priorities. I want to be happy and enjoy where I go each day. Life is just too short not to.

As for other stuff...I just finished making chocolate chip cookies. When we went to Maine, Cary's step-mother made him his favorite cookies and he was begging her to pass on the recipe to me and she did. They are soooo good with a secret ingredient to make them almost cake-like. Cary keeps teasing me since so many people at this funeral were asking about his intentions with me...marriage, etc. He was teasing saying, "She's applying for the position." He was joking today that the cookies are part of my application. But...in all seriousness...I hope they are half as good as his mom's! Tough competition! We ate hers during the 6-hour ride home and they were good...